My biggest fear was losing people I loved,people I was close to. Always.

Lately, I have come to realize that sometimes, those people who are really closest to you, the ones who sometimes end up sucking all the energy out of you .. they are best left at a safe distance. Sometimes, some relationships do require hibernations, while others are best left in the recycle bin. It does become necessary to do some weeding, from time to time. And when some other relationships come ridiculously closely resembling the ones you have just weeded out, why you weed them out too. From the girl I was to who I am now, I guess I have developed a certain ruthlessness.

I used to believe in not writing people off, and always giving them every chance possible.

Now, I know that sometimes, it isnt worth that much time. Best to let people grow at their own pace, and not at the expense of your time and emotions.

I did care quite a bit about what people thought of me.

I don't, that much anymore.

I used to go that extra three thousand miles to make sure that I don't intentionally or unintentionally, hurt anyone. Even when they set out intentionally to hurt me.

I would constantly suppress the urge to fight back, telling myself that I am better than that. And then, end up taking it out on myself. It would take its toll on me.

Now, I can pick my battles better. And mostly, when someone messes with me, crosses that one thin line? hell, I mess with them right back.

Life is too short to be unhappy, no?


If only I can stop overanalyzing things, now, that would be quite something.