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"In the end, everything will be alright. If it's not alright, it's not the end."

Oct. 10th, 2008

There is a very thin line between just being nice, all the time, even to your boss, and sucking up to him. There is also a very thin line between being nice and simultaneously not letting anyone dis you and working ass off, with no personal line whatsoever, just to please boss. of course, workoholism is a gene that predominantly overexpresses in researchers, so having no social life per se is a given, pretty much.

I realize I just totally go the other extreme and freeze and lose all art of making even remotely coherent sentences if there is something I want, in case I end up coming across as a flatterer or just plain sucking up. So usually, it is very hard for me to ask for anything of anyone, much less a superior. I find even to ask for normally regular stuff is very difficult.

So I end up working and working away. And hardly end up talking, for the most.

No wonder I hardly have time to find my Prince Charming. I might have to end up settling for a Srinivasa or Raghavendra who would read the newspaper, not listen to a word I say while I yell rhetoric questions at the kids. Like why they didn't switch off the lights and turn off the taps...

Oct. 8th, 2008

My biggest fear was losing people I loved,people I was close to. Always.

Lately, I have come to realize that sometimes, those people who are really closest to you, the ones who sometimes end up sucking all the energy out of you .. they are best left at a safe distance. Sometimes, some relationships do require hibernations, while others are best left in the recycle bin. It does become necessary to do some weeding, from time to time. And when some other relationships come ridiculously closely resembling the ones you have just weeded out, why you weed them out too. From the girl I was to who I am now, I guess I have developed a certain ruthlessness.

I used to believe in not writing people off, and always giving them every chance possible.

Now, I know that sometimes, it isnt worth that much time. Best to let people grow at their own pace, and not at the expense of your time and emotions.

I did care quite a bit about what people thought of me.

I don't, that much anymore.

I used to go that extra three thousand miles to make sure that I don't intentionally or unintentionally, hurt anyone. Even when they set out intentionally to hurt me.

I would constantly suppress the urge to fight back, telling myself that I am better than that. And then, end up taking it out on myself. It would take its toll on me.

Now, I can pick my battles better. And mostly, when someone messes with me, crosses that one thin line? hell, I mess with them right back.

Life is too short to be unhappy, no?

If only I can stop overanalyzing things, now, that would be quite something.

Oct. 7th, 2008

Dear God,

it is too much to ask for perfection?
Harald from the House just won a Nobel Prize for medicine this year.

Well, to be exact, Prof Harald zur Hausen, from DKFZ where I am at, won the Nobel prize. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Jul. 28th, 2008

"...people aren't chocolates. But you know what they are, mostly? Bastards. Bastard-coated bastards with bastard filling."

Dr. John Cox, Scrubs.

Cynical day mode. hope it won't last long. I'd really rather be naive and ignorant of all that is really going on.
For the Germans, it was ok to lose to the Spanish. But had it been Turkey, Netherlands or even Italy, losing would have been a strict no-no.


Jun. 25th, 2008

Awww... for the Turks. That 90th minute goal was quite something. Riots, outside. I guess this will go on for quite sometime...


Resilience. I felt it, today. This place, this work, it heals.

And yes, I feel happy. I feel the joy, and it wasn't a fleeting one that disappeared soon as I realized it, I still feel it.

And someone said that I had unassuming grace, and a quiet efficiency. Ooh, and that I was very articulate.  Yes, it has been a great day.

"If you love me
Why'd you let me go?"

For a 7.4 rating, I found the movie to be not quite upto the mark. I guess that is because I liked the book so much..

About A Boy, the book was easy reading, and really well written. The part about having more people in your life, and no just one you centre your life around, that was well written. You need a dynamic pyramid, and most of that should be composed of people in your life, and occasionally, if you do end up losing one or two, it can still be stable.

"If other people can make you happy, they can also make you unhappy."

Even though it is a feel good movie, and pretty well made, I was a little bit disappointed that the ending did not quite match the book. Although I did appreciate that they didnt make it a cheesy romantic flick-type ending. It was also a little sad that Marcus learns how to be a child after all.. he does lose that uniqueness a bit.


* Rented house, signed contract for one year
* bought furniture
* assembled furniture. IKEA rules. We need that in India
* signed contract for internet and telephone
* fixed the connections - and all text was in German
* fixed that lamp that has been troubling me for a while. figured out how to fix it. elementary, my dear watson and all that.

mode: accomplished. most definitely.
Some random thoughts....

1) Only invest yourself, your time and resources in something that will help you grow, as a person. Not in anything that will drain all your energy out of you, and leave you feeling empty and give you nothing positive in return, emotionally.

2) Dont let anyone, anyone undermine you, your experiences, your abilities, anything.

3) Share yourself only with someone with enough sense and sensitivity to respect what you are, and what you have been through.

4) Of course, expectations are only natural from someone you are close to, nothing wrong with that. But unless they are also accompanied by reality, and a fair take on the situation, they are pretty much bound to crash.

5) Objectivity, objectivity, and objectivity. View all scenarios and situations with objectivity. From all points of view. Be fair.

6) Don't fight dirty. Using something they confided in you to hit them back with it when you are angry, that is the dirtiest way to fight and hurt someone. And no, no one should be putting up with that.

7) Fight for what you think is right. DOn't let anyone,anyone take you for granted.

8) Respect yourself. Respect others. Don't give anyone the time of the day if they don't respect you.

9) Treat others as you wish to be treated. Better still, treat them as they wish to be treated. But if it only becomes a one sided thing, of course they are taking you for granted. Then, treat them as they are treating you.

10) Ego is a good thing, in little doses. The minute you let ego control your life, you end up destroying everything that is good.

11) Respect people's spaces. Sometimes, that is all they have at the moment that matters to them. And invading anything that is private to them, like even reading personal diaries are intrusions of the worst kind, definitely leading to breach of trust.

12) Be kind. It is really that simple. Why it is so hard to be kind to people who matter the most?

Jun. 20th, 2008

OK, that was an awesome win.... Turkey kept their cool and pulled off all three and only sRNA (HAHAHAHA!!! ref: geeky biology joke) managed a goal in the penalty shoot outs.

Turkey vs Germany Semis should be interesting.

Jun. 20th, 2008

OK, that was really brillant stuff. Turkey managed that goal in the last minute of extra time.. with 20 seconds to spare! They really are putting up a very good fight. Now I do wish they win.

Jun. 19th, 2008

It isnt so often that you meet someone different. When they refuse to be themselves, and try to be what they perceive themselves to be, they end up being cliches. Just another generalization..

Jun. 19th, 2008

Go Deutschland! that was a tough one against Portugal..

And next game, if they end up playing Turkey, Mannheim will burn.

"Fussball ist wie Schach, nur ohne Würfel." (Football is like chess, only without the dice.)

Lukas Podolski, 2007.Just brilliant.
Blessed feelings. So great to be alive!
I am back, and I may have stories to tell. Raise hands to tell me who still reads this, bitte. Anyone still here?

Has anyone heard of Prashant Anchalia?

This is a story that shouldn't die out soon.

A 21 year old medical student died in Armenia. And the response?

read about it:








"A man in civilian clothes standing with the police looked at the crowd with frank surprise and asked, “There are more than a billion of them now, right? What they are fighting for, one more, one less?”"

I can only imagine how they all must be feeling right now. The complacency is shocking, yet so old. We know all about it, don't we?

Did any media in India cover this? Does anyone know anyone in the media one can pass it on to?

News just in....

On the terrorist attack on Scientists at the Tata auditorium, opposite IISc. Terrorists in masks from an ambassidor car shot at the crowd. This is shocking, to say the least. Bangalore is unprepared to handle any thing like this. Mumbai is more resilient. And word is, the police have had a clue to terrorists landing in bangalore about two weeks ago.

4 people are said to be injured in this one...

*please be alright*
# 10 days since I have been in Bangalore and then I get a ghastly ENT thingy that irritated the hell outta me. 12 days and I just couldn't stop sneezing, courtesy the construction of frigging apartments right opposite home sweet home. Fled to the doc who prescribed loads of medication. Now please say *Get well soon* :(

# Soon as I landed, I haddo bribe the bloody customs. I feel so robbed. And this was the first time I ended up paying a bribe. Not so good for someone who has always opposed and taken one stand. I want revenge!

# So home cooked food and a dad who cannot stop grinning has turned me back to a lazy slob. But the mother is going overboard - I guess I will go back 1.75 Rashmi after all. *sigh*. The good lady saw a recipe for pineapple pulav and other strange things and has threatened to experiment. Oh dear God.

# Most customary packages (read: obligatory things for relatives) have been delivered. I feel free!

# Most visits have been done, including a puja and a family get-to-gether that was most fun. The thing I enjoyed the most was the ABSENCE of the *Rashmi, you should be getting married* talk. Hallelujah!

# I marvel at wimmen who can wake up pre dawn and cook delicious multiple course meals. My mom, aunt and grandmother continue to be my heores.

# Disco (my guitar teacher (hahahaha!)'s baby can now say my full name, remembers I am in Germany and wants to cook things for me. *sigh*

# Christmas was most fun. Met some mad people and some very warm folks who even prepared my favourite salad and some utterly delicious food. Vodka happened and then a chocolate cigar. My first cigar.. wowee!

# Damn, iz good to be back home!

Dec. 24th, 2005

Germany's fourth largest city is one of my favourite cities after Bangalore ( I still cannot get myself to call it Bengaluru. why?)

source: eBoy via boing boing

The first view was from the bridge, where the Rhine river separates the city against the backdrop of the xdome. The Cologne cathedral is an imposing Gothic structure that I fell in love with immediately, soon as I saw it, so much so that I toured around it about four times (insists a friend, I wasn't counting).

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Jul. 27th, 2005

A dazzling smile accompanied with a friendly countenance does wonders to one's mood. Even when not one word is exchanged. Aah, niceness.

Sep. 27th, 2004

You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself in any direction you choose.
You're on your own.
And you know what you know.
You are the guy who'll decide where to go.
~Dr. Seuss

Sep. 23rd, 2004

Courtesy: jackol

1. Think of a word you would use to describe me.
2. Go to Google Image Search and search for that word.
3. Select the picture you see as most fitting, and post it as a reply.
4. Post this meme in your journal.

Also, pls mention the word :D

Sep. 23rd, 2004

Met fox2mike, rythm and rattle_snake yesterday. rythm, you do not remotely resemble your userpic. I definitely didn't recognize ya. did manage to identify fox2mike though :D

mannu, you have a nice trip. And don't forget moi chocolates :D

Lost and no idea I was being shot. at dinner yesterday.

Dance of the Dragonflies

Amidst staircases made of stone, on a lazy weekday afternoon, Time couldn't pass more slowly. Huge concrete buildings and light reflecting off glass panes, we sat and watched Time pass us by. Dragonflies aplenty, and N insisted that it was their mating season. I disagree, though the way they pair off and hover together in the air might just prove me wrong. N points to a loner and tells K she found him a partner.

I feel very voyeuristic..they are so amazing to watch. There are so many of them. And they seem to suddenly pair off and circle around, with a very irregularly regular pattern. It is another world out there...


Meme from serioussam

The rules:

* Leave a comment, saying you want to be interviewed.

* I will respond; I'll ask you five questions.

* You'll update your journal with my five questions, and your five answers.

* You'll include this explanation.

* You'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.

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And sometimes, life is a rubic cube.

Sep. 9th, 2004

"Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in a square hole, the ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status quo.You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them, because they change things. They push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones who'll do it."

---Apple Computer TV Ad [10/97]

Sep. 7th, 2004

Word processors are a biologist's nightmare. At least, this biologist's nightmare.


Sep. 6th, 2004

"You do not need to leave your room. Remain sitting at your table and listen.Do not even listen, simply wait. Do not even wait, be still and solitary. The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked, it has no choice. It will roll in ecstasy at your feet."

- Kafka

The insidious rapture that is life...

You really do not need a reason to be anything. I wonder why I keep forgetting that.-

Aug. 16th, 2004

It has been ages since I shopped for books, intend to as soon as *they* decide to pay us...

Book Recommendations, anyone? I plan to shop A LOT.

Who I was in my past life:

From here :

" I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.
You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Portugal around the year 975.
Your profession was that of a jeweler or watch-maker.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Inquisitive, inventive, you liked to get to the very bottom of things and to rummage in books. Talent for drama, natural born actor.

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
The world is full of ill and lonely people. You should help those, who are less fortunate than you are."

Aug. 9th, 2004

" Which one is it?"

" It's the one that says Bad Motherfucker on it."

Quentin Tarantino is a fucking GOD.
So many passing clouds have a silver lining.....
"We wish to suggest a structure for the salt of deoxyribose nucleic acid (DNA). This structure has novel features which are of considerable biological interest."

This, the simplest and most undramatic matter-of-fact beginning to a paper which *changed the world*. A revolutionary discovery so dramatic it changed the face of science and medicine.

Here's to Francis Crick. One of the authors. And the winner of the race to decode *life*. Atleast, begin to decode it.


"No man discovered or created molecular biology. But one man dominates intellectually the whole field, because he knows the most and understands the most. Francis Crick." - Jacques Monod, molecular biologist

Jul. 10th, 2004

How does one de-stess?

No, I cannot take a vacation, cannot take leave :(